The truth of the matter is there are many times when I just stare at this blank blog space and wonder which compartment of thoughts to open in my brain and share. Most times it’s clear what topic I want to talk about and once I start everything follows suite. But, I guess today is a little different as my brain is filled with many thoughts and perhaps they are not sorted in perfect English.
Let’s start with something simple like the confusion I have about which Macbook Air to buy. Do I get the 11 inch, I can fit in my handbag model or do I continue to work on a 13 inch as I do now and buy that. I guess for many people this dilemma would not be a challenge. I love the ability to work anywhere, but I also love the ability to have many applications and pages open at once, will the 11-inch be big enough for that?
Another thought that comes to mind is balance. The fact that my weight goes up and down like a yo-yo. I guess its not even my weight but more the size of my overall body. I mean this time last year I was training for the half marathon and very slim. Whereas now my favourite activity is boxing and I probably carrying a little more muscle. The fact that I hold a bedroom in the country and home and a place in the city is another factor that springs to mind. It stresses me that my clothes, belongings and jewelry is spread over two households.
I then think about the the never it rains but it pours theory when discussing boys. It was only two weeks ago that I was overwhelmed with the attention I was getting, and now it seems to be a measly trickle. And, I am the first to say don’t base your happiness on this factor – but everyone loves a bit of attention from whatever sex they are interested in. This stuff works on roulette though, it will come around again.
I guess the last thing that is in my mind and perhaps the item that carries the most weight, is family concern. I wonder for the well-being of my family and I hope that they are striving to get the most out of the life they are leading. Honesty is very important to me, and I guess that can be overlooked sometimes because we all make mistakes and have to pick up the pieces in our own way. I guess what I mean is that I look to be honest with my family all the time. The memory that stands out the most on this matter is the ONE time that I lied to my Mum. I had a friend that was sneaky around everyone’s back seeing this other family friend of ours. I knew about the relationship and I couldn’t tell my family. I straight up lied to Mum and I felt terrible after. Lying, dishonesty and failing to voice your opinion with your family I think is the greatest sin because they will always be there and it’s up to us how pure we make that relationship.
I dread a conversation I have to have with a family member and I guess we all say a band-aid approach is needed… But everyone loves a bit of sunshine, right?
I’ll let you know how it goes.